Truth

Understand that there are those who are so invested in the ego’s thought system that they believe that if you do not get physically upset, shout and argue with them, you do not really care about them or love them. Sit quietly for a moment and understand what this says about those individuals. Imagine how lost and confused they must feel. They equate love with being physically upset, shouting, arguing and regret. But do not judge them, for they simply have bought the ego’s fairy tale as true. My friend, only small children believe fairy tales are true. Thus, if you encounter such beings, simply offer them even more comfort and love, and one day they will realize that comfort and love is the only sane response to comfort and love.

Many people ask the question, “How can you begin to heal a relationship with someone who you believe has caused you pain?” How about trying a case of amnesia. Remember that what you choose not to forgive will weigh you down as long as you choose to carry that thought with you. Regardless of how right you thought you were in defending your position, regardless of whose fault you perceived the situation to be, you will carry the pain until you are able to forgive your brother or sister. As the great “philosopher” Buddy Hackett once said, “Don’t carry a grudge. While you’re carrying the grudge, the other guy’s out dancing.” Forgive your brother, release him and you shall set yourself free.

My friends, the ego would have you search for someone who is your opposite, murmuring to you that this mysterious person will make you happy. The ego also has you on a continuous journey for that mysterious person who will someday make you whole and complete. Finally, the ego provides you with the main rule of its game, that you must play the game with one partner until your or your partner’s death to truly experience victory, success and happiness. Notice how the ego subtlety hints and whispers that you must search outside yourself to find and experience happiness, completion, victory and success. For if you must search outside yourself, then by the process of elimination, happiness, completion, victory and success cannot be within you now. Notice how the ego says ‘that your opposite will make you happy.’ What do you think the ego is implying with such a statement? My brother and sister, remember one of the ego’s main schemes is to have you search but not find.

A letter to Rajini Kanth

விகடனில் ரஜினிக்கு கடிதம். ( இதுவும் வாசகர் விருப்பம் )

அன்புத் தலைவனுக்கு, அன்பான வணக்கம்!

உங்களிடம் நேரில்தான் பேசவே முடியாதே… சில விஷயங்களை மனசைவிட்டு
தங்களின் காலடியில் இறக்கிவைக்கவே இந்தக் கடிதம்! தமிழகத்தில் நிறைய
அரசியல்வாதிகள் தலைவராக தங்களை முன்னிலைப்படுத்திக் கொண்டாலும்,
எல்லோரையும் யாரும் இப்படி அன்பொழுக அழைப்பது இல்லை. எந்தக் கட்சியையும்
தொடங்காதபோதே, ‘தலைவா’ என்று உயிர் உருக உங்களை அழைத்த லட்சக்கணக்கான
ரசிகர்களில் ஒரு துளி நான்.

நீங்கள் சந்தோஷமாக இருக்கிறீர்களா தலைவரே? நாங்கள் சந்தோஷமாக இல்லை!
‘போக்குவரத்து நெரிசல், கூட்டம் அதிகம் இருக்கும் என்பதால் மகள்
திருமணத்துக்கு வரவேண்டாம்’ என்று நீங்கள் சொல்லிவிட்டீர்கள். இதே
அறிக்கையை உங்கள் படம் ரிலீஸ் ஆகும்போது விடுவீர்களா? அப்போதும்
தியேட்டரைச் சுற்றிலும் கூட்டம், போக்குவரத்து நெரிசல், பிதுங்கும்
ஜனத்திரள் எல்லாமே இருக்குமே!

இந்த நேரத்தில், மூத்த மகள் மணவிழா சென்னை பட்டினப்பாக்கம் மேயர்
ராமநாதன் ஹாலில் நடந்ததும் ஞாபகம் வருகிறது. கோட்டு சூட்டு
போட்டவர்களையும், கார்களில் வந்தவர்களையும் சிவப்பு கம்பளம் விரித்து
வரவேற்றீர்கள். ஆனால், நாங்களோ மண்டப வாசலிலேயே சத்யநாராயணா மூலம்
கெடுபிடியாக வெளியே தள்ளப்பட்டோம். வெள்ளித் திரையில் உங்களுக்கு கற்பூர

ஆரத்தி எடுத்த எங்களின் கண்களில், கண்ணீர்த் திரை அப்போது வழிந்தது
நிஜம். உங்களின் ஒவ்வொரு பிறந்த நாளிலும் ஊருக்கே சோறு போட்டவர்கள்,
‘உள்ளே வராதே’ என்று விரட்டி அடிக்கப்பட்டோம்.

அதே மண்டபத்தில் நடிகர் பிரபுவின் மகன் கல்யாணம். திருமணத்துக்கு முதல்
நாள் ரசிகர்களை மண்டபத்துக்கு அழைத்து, மணமக்களை அறிமுகப்படுத்தி
விருந்து கொடுத்தார். அந்த பாசத்தை உங்களிடம் நாங்கள் எதிர்பார்த்தது
தவறா? ரசிகன் கட்டும் தோரணம் வேண்டும்… கட்-அவுட் வேண்டும்… டிக்கெட்
காசு வேண்டும்… நாங்கள் மட்டும் வேண்டாமா? பெரிய பெரிய வி.ஐ.பி-க்களோடு
எங்களைச் சேர்த்து வைத்து வரவேற்க வேண்டாம்… உங்கள் குடும்பத்தின் இந்த
சந்தோஷ நிகழ்ச்சியை முன்னிட்டு எங்களுக்கென்று தனியாக ஓரிரு மணி நேரம்
நீங்கள் ஒதுக்கக் கூடாதா? மேடைகளிலும், அறிக்கைகளிலும் உங்களைத் தூற்றி
நகையாடியவர்களுக்குக்கூட நேரில் போய் பத்திரிகை வைத்தீர்களே…
தூஷித்தவர்களுக்கு விருந்து வைத்து போஷிக்கிறீர்கள்…… உங்களை வாரி
அணைத்தவர்களை வாசலுக்கு வெளியே நிறுத்தலாமா?

ஐந்து ஆண்டுகளுக்கு ஒரு முறை தேர்தல் வரும். நீங்கள் திடீரென்று விமான
நிலையத்தில் ஸ்டைலாக நின்றுகொண்டு, ‘இந்தக் கட்சிக்கு ஓட்டுப் போடு’
என்று போஸ் கொடுத்துவிட்டுப் பறந்துவிடுவீர்கள். உங்கள் வார்த்தையை
உயிராய் சுமந்து ஓடியாடி உழைப்போம். அரசியல்வாதிகள் எங்களைத் தேர்தல்
வேலைகளுக்குப் பயன்படுத்திக்கொண்டு, கறிவேப்பிலையாகத் தூக்கி
வீசிவிடுவார்கள். ஒரு தடவை தி.மு.க-வை ஆதரிக்கச் சொல்வீர்கள். அடுத்த
தரம், ஜெயலலிதா வீட்டில் சிரித்துப் பேசிக்கொண்டு இருக்கும் போட்டோ
ரிலீஸ் ஆகும் . எது சொன்னால் என்ன… மகுடிக்குக் கட்டுப்பட்ட பாம்பாக
ஆடி, கடைசியில் சொந்தக் காசில் சூடு வைத்துக்கொள்வோம்!

நிதானமாக யோசித்தால், ஒன்று புரிகிறது… நீங்கள் தெளிவினும் தெளிவு.
உங்கள் ஒவ்வொரு படம் வரும்போதும், ரசிகர்களின் மனசைக்
கரைத்துவிடுவீர்கள். கடந்த முறை ‘குசேலன்’ படம் ஓடத் திட்டமிட்டு,
கரிசனம் காட்டித் திடீரென ராகவேந்திரா மண்டபத்துக்கு அழைத்து, ‘என்னையும்
ரசிகர்களையும் பிரிக்க முடியாது.’ என்று சொல்லி, கோடம் பாக்கத்தையே
கொடைக்கானல் ஆக்கினீர்கள்! ஆனால், ஒரு படம் ஓகோவென ஓடினால் நன்றி சொல்ல
அழைத்தது உண்டா? வெற்றிச் செய்தி காதில் விழுந்ததுமே இமயமலையில்
கால்வைத்து விடுவீர்கள்!

உங்களை கேவலமாகத் திருமாவளவன் வசை பாடியபோது, கோபமாகி எதிர்த்தோம்.
விளைவாக, கட்சியினரால் தாக்கப்பட்டு, மருத்துவமனையில் இருந்தோம். நீங்கள்
ஒரு வார்த்தையாவது ‘என்னாச்சு?’ என்று கேட்டதில்லை. இன்று வரை பகை
நெருப்புபற்றி எரிகிறது எங்களுக்குள். ஆனால், பெரியவர்கள் ஒன்று
சேர்ந்துவிட்டீர்கள். திருமாவின் வீடு தேடி, திருமண அழைப்பு
தருகிறீர்கள். ஆனால், அன்று எங்களை அடித்தவர்கள், இன்று மறுபடியும்
எங்களைப் பார்த்து மிகக் கேவலமாகச் சிரித்தபடி ‘எங்க பவர் புரியுதா?’
என்று வாய் கூசாமல் கமென்ட் அடிக்கும் போது உயிரோடு போட்டுச் சிதைப்பது
போல் இருக்கிறதே தலைவா!

‘பாபா’ படம் வந்தபோது, வட மாவட்டங்களில் கலவரம் தலைவிரிக்க…
பா.ம.க-வினர் அரங்குகளில் படப் பெட்டிகளையே தூக்கினர். தடுத்த எங்களுக்கு
அடி, உதை… ரத்தக் கசிவு நின்றாலும், வடுக்கள் இன்னும் உடலில்! இப்போது
நீங்களோ அன்புமணி இல்லம் தேடிப் போய் அழைப்புவைத்து அளவளாவுகிறீர்கள்!
‘பகையைப் பாராட்டாத பரந்த உள்ளம்’ என்றும் ‘நாகரிகம் அறிந்த நல்ல மனிதர்’
என்ற பெயர்கள் உங்களுக்குக் கிடைக்கலாம்… ஆனால், காயம்பட்ட எங்களை
மட்டும் சுத்தமாகப் புறக்கணிக்கும்போது நெஞ்சில் ரத்தக் கண்ணீர்
வடிகிறதே!

எங்களைப் பார்த்து வளர்ந்த விஜய காந்த் ரசிகர்கள்கூட கரை வேட்டி
கட்டிக்கொண்டு, எங்களை ஏதோ காயலான் கடை பொருள்போல ஏளனமாகப் பார்ப்பதை
எப்படித் தாங்கிக்கொள்ள?

எவ்வளவு அடிச்சாலும் தாங்கிக் கொண்டு திரும்பத் திரும்ப உங்கள் பின்னால்
இன்னும் எத்தனை நாளைக்கு நாங்கள் ஓடி வர முடியும்? காலம் எல்லாம்
தாங்கிக்கொண்டு சும்மா இருக்க எங்களுக்கு ‘எந்திர’ இதயம் இல்லையே! அது
ரத்தமும் சதையினாலும் அல்லவா ஆனது?

தயவுசெய்து புரிந்துகொள்ளுங்கள் தலைவா!

இப்படிக்கு
ஈர விழிகளுடன்,
உங்களின் ரசிகன்

( நன்றி: விகடன் )

2010 April trip to Sabari malai

This trip was a fantastic trip I ever went. Myself and Suresh planned to go for this trip, We were thinking which route to take this time, as it was the peak season which is called as VISHU. All the train tickets are on waiting list so we decided to take the other route via theni via kumily via pamba. We started from koyambedu in a SETC by 8.30 we reached cumbum which is 20 kms from theni by 7 am. It was an awesome town cool climate a typical village.. i loved it.. from there we took to kumily by bus which is only 8rs fare and it is just 20 kms which is fully a hill ride. Reached Kumily by 8 am. Kumily is a famous hill station in India. Noticed lots of foreign people as well as people from all over the nation. Kumily comes under Kerala limit it is the TN – Kerala border. nice climate, full tea plantation. from there we took a jeep to pamba it was 135 kms and it took 4 hours for us to reach as it was a complete terrain ride. We reached pamba by 2 PM. It was hot like heal cant even step out I was wondering how am I going to meet my Swami. Immediately within 20 minutes it started raining like anything and the rain was there for almost half hours and the entire place was chilling. We started climbing by 4 PM we reached by 5 PM exactly one hour.. this is the first time we were able to climb so quickly and we had a wonderful dharshan again we started getting down and we reached pamba by 6.30. We were again thinking which route we should take but without any confusion we took the same route and we got the same jeep to kumily, But this time it took 5+ hours as it was the night time and it is a misty mountain our driver couldnt drive so well and some how we reached kumily by 12.30 I was wondering What am i going to do in kumily by 12.30 never had a heart to leave that place itself it was so good. A perfect climate.. As Kumily is the main junction it was active like morning all the shops were opened and the business was going good only. We had dinner over there bad food…. However we had something to stuff inside.. and thank god we got a bus by 1 to dindigul then only we know that kumily has 24 hours bus services. from kumily it took 4 hours for us to reach dindigul and we reached dindigul by 5 o clock.. from dindigul we took a bus to Trichy and we reached Trichy by 7 o clock. Break fast over in Trichy. One guy came and he said one bus is waiting for you please come and he said the ticket cost is just 150 and immediately we got the tickets and later we realised that we are the first to get the tickets but some how we got in as we were damn tired we tried to sleep but it was hot like hell. So we waited till the bus starts.. an hour passed… two.. three.. still the bus is in trichy.. and finally by 10.30 driver had the heart to start the bus but he drove so well and he managed to reach by 3 in Chennai. took a AC cab to home… and took rest.. All set.. I loved this route actually.. the total cost was

Chennai to Cumbum – Rs 235

Cumbum to Kumily – Rs 8

Kumily to Pamba by Jeep – 120 Rs / head.

Fantastic route very scenic route. Try this route buddies…

It was a toughest competition in me, I have never felt such a painful moment in my life, may be I would have felt it earlier but I am not used to it. It is such an unpleasant feeling don’t know what to do nor where to go. Why all this happening only to me. I know this is the truth and I have to accept it and live with it but I am not able to accept it. I wish if there is any school which teaches us to face this kind of situation. Confused… It is like a city traffic congestion inside my mind all because of one driver, now only that driver can solve this whole mess, but the driver is not willing. I don’t know why I am writing this, but felt like writing I know I am going mad. One hand I not able to achieve my targets in my business on the other hand completely collapsed, where this will end. Oh my god please help me. I know time will heal this and only time can heal this. I took a wrong decision when my love sense were working it is my sixth senses responsibility to control my thoughts and emotions but I know its late may be not too late, but now I am overwhelmed with this stupid mental torture don’t have anybody to share with.. Please help.. Somebody help.. Is anybody listening to me..  Am I born to face all these bloody hell feelings.. I am a week hearted, its very fragile its broken now.. Its bleeding inside.. I can feel the bloods draining out.. Somebody have to help me to stop all this.   Not able to concentrate on anything else.. I never knew that my mind can think only about this particular issue for 24 / 7.. We ll see what’s gonna happen.. I need a break out of this fuck in hell.. Why the fuck I am like this.. I hate to be like this.. Please help me.. Not able to tell to anyone what is running in my mind, not able to fight with it.. I am done no more energy.. I am broke.. I am dying.. Its paining.. Its like burning in the hell all the day.. No words to explain how exactly I feel.. I don’t wanna act.. But I have to act in this world of stage. I am born for unlucky.. I am the total shape for unlucky and sorrow. Am I psychic.. I have a wonderful parents lovable.. But I wanna love someone whom I can.. But nobody loves me whom I love.. When this will all come an end.. Is my death the only answer… ?.. Answer me..

Life is a journey

Life is a journey all you need is wheels to travel. You should learn how to balance your life. Always have back ups in life. Always float multiple supports so that you never your balance. Have sufficient extra wheels so that you never have to wait to replace an old one. Our ultimate goal is to reach the desired destination so it is not important which wheel makes you reach your destination. Its all you need is just wheels which keeps moving you at a good pace. If you find a wheel is slippery or if you think its going to get flat just throw it away before it slows down your journey, you are already running out of time, but make sure you always have sufficient wheels for the back up. It is always better to keep changing the wheels often rather than using the same wheel just because you think about the past journey. Think about your future journey when you feel that this current wheels are not going to help you do not give a chance for them to slow you down, just replace it with the new wheels which you already have it safe. Follow this and I wish you all the best for you to reach your desired destiny very soon.

Truth!!

Understand that there are those who are so invested in the ego’s thought system that they believe that if you do not get physically upset, shout and argue with them, you do not really care about them or love them. Sit quietly for a moment and understand what this says about those individuals. Imagine how lost and confused they must feel. They equate love with being physically upset, shouting, arguing and regret. But do not judge them, for they simply have bought the ego’s fairy tale as true. My friend, only small children believe fairy tales are true. Thus, if you encounter such beings, simply offer them even more comfort and love, and one day they will realize that comfort and love is the only sane response to comfort and love.

Many people ask the question, “How can you begin to heal a relationship with someone who you believe has caused you pain?” How about trying a case of amnesia. Remember that what you choose not to forgive will weigh you down as long as you choose to carry that thought with you. Regardless of how right you thought you were in defending your position, regardless of whose fault you perceived the situation to be, you will carry the pain until you are able to forgive your brother or sister. As the great “philosopher” Buddy Hackett once said, “Don’t carry a grudge. While you’re carrying the grudge, the other guy’s out dancing.” Forgive your brother, release him and you shall set yourself free.

My friends, the ego would have you search for someone who is your opposite, murmuring to you that this mysterious person will make you happy. The ego also has you on a continuous journey for that mysterious person who will someday make you whole and complete. Finally, the ego provides you with the main rule of its game, that you must play the game with one partner until your or your partner’s death to truly experience victory, success and happiness. Notice how the ego subtlety hints and whispers that you must search outside yourself to find and experience happiness, completion, victory and success. For if you must search outside yourself, then by the process of elimination, happiness, completion, victory and success cannot be within you now. Notice how the ego says ‘that your opposite will make you happy.’ What do you think the ego is implying with such a statement? My brother and sister, remember one of the ego’s main schemes is to have you search but not find.

Swami Saranam

Swami Saranam!!!. Visiting Sabari malai was always a dream for me until July 2009, then i had a chance of going there with my uncle and his friends it was such a wonderful trip i ever had, The misty mountains, the sacred river Pamba and the great lord Swami Ayyapan everything was so good immediately i made a decision to visit again the forth coming month and with gods grace i made it again.

This time I went with my closest friend Suresh I told him about the previous experience and the changes which really happened in me and he was excited too so we immediately booked the tickets unfortunately our tickets were not confirmed but still we got into the reserved compartments. After boarding the train we really felt bad because of the TTEs they never wanted to give us a seat and when i asked them they said no seats ask the next compartment we don`t want to give up so we visited the next compartment no seats like that we went to the last compartment later we realised that the TTEs were just playing foot ball with us and we finally decided to travel in standing but it is 700+kms we were able to travel in standing till salem but after that we were able to get settle in one corner and we slept by the time we woke up it was Ernakulam, then we were able to get a berth and we had a short nap for 2 hours and got down in Chenganoor.

We reached Pamba and we washed our sins in the holy river. We were able to climb the mountain in an hours time and finally visited the garden of Lord Ayyappa. It was an awesome darshan we were very happy to get such a good darshan. Then we started immediately as we have to get the first train by 7 am in the morning. We have to travel 200+ kms to reach Ernakulam and all we had is just 12 hours now the problem is our last bus to Chenganoor was by 6 PM and by the time we reach Pamba it was 7 PM. Then we managed to go to Pathanamthitta but by the time we reached Pathanamthitta it was 12 Midnight and we had no options, It was a thrilling moments we had in that night finally we decided to ask for a lift till Chenganoor and one mini truck helped us by dropping us in tiruvalla we travelled in the back side of the truck.. It was damn cold but still we enjoyed it and finally we reached Tiruvalla by 2 AM and we were able to get Amrita Express which will takes us to Ernakulam by 6 and finally we made it and we boarded the train.

3rd time
This time I went with one of my area mate called Sudan. As it was a planned trip all our tickets were confirmed and we safely reached Chenganoor and we had a good darshan this time too but again we made a mistake by coming back to Erumeli from Pamba and from Erumeli we couldnt get any buses to Chenganoor, This time our train is by 6 AM in the morning and till 11 we were in Erumeli. Then finally one bus driver helped us by giving us a suggestion though it was a long take but it was the only option left for us. He asked us to take kumily bus and get down in Mundakayam and from there to kottayam by bus and from Kottayam train to Chenganoor. I still wonder why all my journeys are so adventurous for me. Still I enjoyed all my trips to Sabari Malai. Let me see how my trip is going to be this time.